Kissing the Dragon

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Kissing the Dragon


When I was younger I used to have these dreams of being chased by zombies who were reaching out to grab me. Just before they could I’d stop running and turn around and say, “I’m a zombie too!” Then we’d head off to get somebody else. What I see going on today is kind of like that with cable shows, movies and video games and everybody thinks they’re a living dead – a zombie.


What we’re witnessing over the past 4 or 5 days is an example of tough guys and bad women who think they have to tear down the historical and capitalistic dinosaurs to make way for “new growth”. What a farce! They are the product a generation where the lessons of history were never learned.


Now they have been indoctrinated into a futuristic sheeple society where fear, intimidation and violence are the tools to a better life. These were good kids who were sent away to the plantation of modern education with no goals or aspirations where the educators were among yesterday’s malcontents and failures of a society where they didn’t fit in.


Along comes a magical mystic ultra-secretive anti-society where they are taught to pick out the weak and the elderly of society, those unable to fight back, the innocent and unsuspecting and hone in their new-found skills.


If you watch Animal Planet or National Geographic channels on cable – the lions hunt the wildebeest searching out the weaklings and strays that haven’t learned or can’t keep up as the herd wildly runs away. There is always one or two who are just not fast enough or smart enough.


It’s the same principle with humans. The bully looks for the nerd or the new kid who doesn’t quite fit in and does the unthinkable – attack without mercy. The natural tendency is to look away, then walk away as if it never even happened. Take that same bully and put him in a group that is fearful of him and the world is his. Take that group and cover their faces with head or face coverings and turn them loose on the street in a neighborhood and you have a roving gang of thugs. Soon they think they are kings of their own turf. They have no jobs, no purpose and soon no sense of responsibility. Enter groups like Antifa and Black Lives Matter. They have banners, signs and slogans. They have over time developed a reputation that instills fear where ever they are seen. It’s not long before they incorporate the bullies and their groups building up their masses. Still they lack a purpose or direction. Along come the community organizers and trainers who take them under their wings and give them training and direction, equipping them for future action. When the political climate is right the financiers arrange for transportation, food, shelter and most importantly a decent sum of money to commit to action participation. In every organization there must be political and law enforcement allies to insure that participants are not held accountable for their actions. There must be a means of communicating to the participants and on public forums like news, television and social media. Without media there is no desired fear level to make people run and hide and afraid of fighting back. At every level of this equation there are those who are expendable and easy to replace. They are called useful idiots. They are not the brains, only the muscle for this occasion.


It’s been said that you don’t have to be smart to be a criminal. However criminals almost always think they are smarter then you or me. They are definitely smarter than cops right? They venture into territory where they THINK they are the masters. It’s like being a Call of Duty sniper. You are so bad that every pat on the back or curse to your face takes you to a higher skill level and pretty soon you think you are invincible.


If you’ve seen the posts on social media where rioting in the streets in cities across the nation appear to be getting worse each day. If you look closely you will see sporadic pockets of resistance where shop keepers and armed citizens stand guard only to see rioters pass on by without stopping. They know or have been told to avoid any pockets of resistance so as not to slow the momentum of the movement.


When you follow the news reports you are told that President Trump is responsible for the violence, the racism and the cops on black American killings like that of George Floyd in Minneapolis. In one voice the media parrots the same leftist talking points over and over and over again.


As everyone is urging him to bring active duty units in to stop the violence President Trump has urged state governors to take control and activate their National Guard troops to augment local and state law enforcement. Only a handful of governors have done that thus far and their response has been way too slow and seemingly a half-hearted effort.


Taking what began as peaceful protesting police violence against black Americans a 1st Amendment right under the Constitution, domestic terrorist groups have exploited entire communities and redirected the anger and concern for justice for George Floyd into a growing nationwide display of lawlessness, rioting and looting with public and private property damage and loss of many more innocent lives.


This is what I call Kissing the Dragon in an attempt not to be the recipient of a flaming attack. I got news for you it doesn’t work like that. There are several things that are about to happen, if not already in progress.


First the Department of Justice has dispatched enforcement task forces to identify, apprehend and arrest rioting organizers and ringleaders. There are many video cameras and eyewitness accounts where every participant will be unmasked and prosecuted. Supporters and enablers will also be identified and held accountable.


Second state and federal military units have been on the scene or alerted for specific hotspots to quell the civil unrest and restore order, implemented by armed militias and patriotic Americans who are both trained and willing to step in to assist. We will not let this foolishness continue. We are neighbors and family all seeking justice for the George Floyds of our nation. We will begin afresh to clean up the messes, rebuild homes, businesses and communities. We will come together as one nation under God.


This is an election year and we have seen how democratically elected officials have either helped or hindered during these violent days. Democrat, Republican or Independent – you who left us out in the cold and sided with these domestic terrorists for political gain will not be getting our vote come November. – I am the Real Truckmaster!



The Uniting of America




The Uniting of America


Across the nation we are witnessing rioting, looting and deliberate murders in the name of “protest” and from the very start it appeared to be organized. The spark in Minneapolis could very well have been a setup using an unsuspecting George Floyd as bait.


In a press release, cops described the fatal encounter as a ‘medical incident.’


On Monday evening, shortly after 8:00 pm, officers from the Minneapolis Police Department responded to the 3700 block of Chicago Avenue South on a report of a forgery in progress. Officers were advised that the suspect was sitting on top of a blue car and appeared to be under the influence.

Two officers arrived and located the suspect, a male believed to be in his 40s, in his car. He was ordered to step from his car. After he got out, he physically resisted officers. Officers were able to get the suspect into handcuffs and noted he appeared to be suffering medical distress. Officers called for an ambulance.


It is during this period that cellphone video showed bystanders pleaded on deaf ears for officers to get the handcuffed man off the ground. They pleaded with the officer to get his knee off the man’s neck as George Floyd was on the ground handcuffed saying he couldn’t breathe and as officer Derek Chauvin kneeled with his knee on Floyd’s neck. Floyd went limp before paramedics arrived and it is clear there was no attempt to render medical assistance by either of the two officers. Paramedics appeared to check for a pulse and moved calmly to load Floyd seemingly lifeless body, still handcuffed hands behind his back, onto a gurney and into the ambulance.


He was transported to Hennepin County Medical Center by ambulance where he died a short time later.

At no time were weapons of any type used by anyone involved in this incident.

The Minnesota Bureau of Criminal Apprehension has been called in to investigate this incident at the request of the Minneapolis Police Department.

No officers were injured in the incident.

Body worn cameras were on and activated during this incident.


What is clear is that a crime had been committed resulting in the death of George Floyd and could very easily have been prevented had officers responded differently. Derek Chauvin was subsequently fired from the MPD and has been charged with 3rd degree Manslaughter yet we may never know the full circumstances until body camera video is examined and released publicly or to a jury at trial.


The collateral damage resulting in this gross miscarriage of justice set off a powder keg of organized protests, rioting and looting and more innocent deaths across the country from the West coast to the East coast and even to the White House in Washington, DC.


There are multiple displays of unity as Americans have taken up arms to protect the life and property of others in the face of unruly mobs. Sadly lone Americans defending their property have suffered catastrophic injury and even death. Americans have come together as one in the face of adversity many times over the past 240 years and today is no different.

It is ironic that as we watch the historic launch of two NASA astronauts into space on a joint SpaceX – NASA project, we also see the wanton destruction of mob violence attempting to shred the fabric of our nation and we have only ourselves to blame. Many of our public schools and those of higher learning have been turned into brainwashing indoctrination centers where family values are replaced with misplaced loyalties where violence is the norm. Have we not learned that violence is never the answer; violence leads more violence and ultimately ends in death.


Those responsible for orchestrating this wave of violence must be held responsible. Follow the money. Paid rabble-rousers who cross state lines for the purpose of rioting and looting are doing so seemingly with impunity. That makes this unrest political in nature and we must look at local, state and national politicians and political figures and hold them responsible. Law enforcement officers on every level are sworn to serve and protect the public. Failure on their part to perform those duties must result in termination and in some cases may warrant prosecution.


In recent months COVID-19 has sought to keep us apart, isolated and fearful but we are a nation of patriots. We come from many racial and ethnic backgrounds becoming one people under one God. We are American’s who love God, our families and our country. Our forefathers fought to create this great nation. We stand with our brothers and sisters continuing the fight to preserve it. Some say the storm is coming. America will be fundamentally changed. We will not let that happen.

WE ARE THE STORM! – I am the Real Truckmaster!



When You Have Done All To Stand

5-30-2020 – Updated


When You Have Done All To Stand


What we know, four days ago George Floyd died while in the custody of Minneapolis police officer Dereck Chauvin. A video released to the media was broadcast worldwide. People were immediately outraged at the sight of a black man on the ground in handcuffs as police officer Derek Chauvin kneeled over him with his knee directly over George Floyd’s neck. For all appearances it was a clear case of a black man murdered by an abusive police officer. Mr. Floyd could be heard saying “I can’t breathe!” yet officer Chauvin did not move. Mr. Floyd died on the scene.


Officer Chauvin was known to have had a number of complaints against him from his 19 years on the job without ever being prosecuted. He has been fired from his job. He was charged with 3rd degree manslaughter and other charges and is pending prosecution. In this case the prosecutor says based on the evidence there are no grounds for a criminal prosecution of officer Chauvin.


George Floyd was known as a gentle giant having moved from Houston, Texas to Minneapolis to help the people of Minnesota. He is known for his ministerial work in the Houston area. He was a family man. The medical examiner conducted an autopsy on Mr. Floyd and found no evidence of strangulation or asphyxiation, but rather concluded that he died of a heart condition mixed with intoxicants.


Now that is what I’ve gathered and we still don’t know is what started this incident.


I came across the following George Floyd arrest MPD Press Release


MINNEAPOLIS — (Scroll Down For Video) — The FBI will investigate the fatal arrest of a man that occurred in South Minneapolis Monday night.



In a press release, cops described the fatal encounter as a ‘medical incident.’


On Monday evening, shortly after 8:00 pm, officers from the Minneapolis Police Department responded to the 3700 block of Chicago Avenue South on a report of a forgery in progress.


Officers were advised that the suspect was sitting on top of a blue car and appeared to be under the influence.


Two officers arrived and located the suspect, a male believed to be in his 40s, in his car. He was ordered to step from his car. After he got out, he physically resisted officers. Officers were able to get the suspect into handcuffs and noted he appeared to be suffering medical distress. Officers called for an ambulance. He was transported to Hennepin County Medical Center by ambulance where he died a short time later.


At no time were weapons of any type used by anyone involved in this incident.


The Minnesota Bureau of Criminal Apprehension has been called in to investigate this incident at the request of the Minneapolis Police Department.


No officers were injured in the incident.


Body worn cameras were on and activated during this incident.



Although there is picture of a handcuffed George Floyd walking with officers, there is yet to be released body camera video showing what happened throughout the arrest. I must warn you that the video is hard to watch and clearly shows the officers lack of concern for the apprehended suspect’s safety or affected with bystanders pleading for over 7 minutes for the officer to get off his neck.


Disturbing video posted online shows the unidentified officer kneeling on the man’s neck for at least seven minutes — he later died.



In the meantime there were organized protests against police brutality in Minneapolis by many who rushed to judgement without any of the evidence that I’ve mentioned, except the leaked video.


We have been told George Floyd was an innocent man.

We have been told Derek Chauvin was a bad cop.


Clearly everything is not what it appears to be and an outside investigation is warranted.


Based on that assumption there have been demonstrations, protests and rioting across the nation resulting in loss of lives, destruction of private and public property with massive lootings and burning of business and government establishments. The Minnesota National Guard has been activated to work alongside state police and local law enforcement to restore order.


There have been many non-residents coming into Minneapolis by vehicles and aircraft to actively participate in the lawlessness. They claim to protest police brutality and stand up for the memory of George Floyd, but they’re lying. Minneapolis is not the only area either, in city after city across the nation and even an assault on the White House in Washington, DC yesterday bringing more condemnation and disgrace to those involved.


We’ve seen this “protesting” before by paid “actors” from Black Lives Matters and Antifa agitators from outside the protest area inciting the rioting and encouraging the looting. They are doing the very thing George Floyd was against.


As I said earlier we do not have the whole story. We don’t know what happened or what caused George Floyd’s death. This was a massive rush to judgement by informed mobs of people who acted without hope. There will be investigations into the events surrounding the incident and into each act of violence done in various communities as the lives and livelihood of a great many have been affected.


What is obvious is the lack of local and national politicians condemning the violence. Many have offered words without meaning or substance that do not call for personal responsibility. Even the governor of Minnesota was reportedly handing out COVID facemasks to rioters and protesters while begging them to stop. At one point after a declaration of an 8pm curfew was ignored by the rioters, police and National Guard simply retreated out of the area and out of sight as if they had never even been there.


The 1st Amendment does not give permission for rioting, looting or violence. They are not considered free speech when people are injured or killed and property destroyed or stolen by looters. There was a time when looters were shot on sight. Armed Minneapolitans were seen standing side by side protecting business and homes from the lawlessness. I did not see or hear of any of their weapons being discharged, as was heard elsewhere during the rioting which has lasted more than 3 days thus far.


Where is the leadership? Equally important who are the entities behind the lawlessness we are seeing on news broadcasts across the nation? How do spontaneous protestors simply show up? Where did they come from? What is their mode of travel? Where do they stay? How do they sustain themselves? And how do they know where to go in a strange city?


The lack of outrage by politicians is deafening. When President Trump condemned the violence on Twitter his words were censured and labeled as glorifying violence and that has not been corrected.


Congressional Democrats were quick to lay blame on President Trump, yet did not condemn the violence.


A speech by presidential-candidate Joe Biden was a lot of nothing in as many words yet did not condemn the violence.


The letter from Barack Obama did not condemn the violence, only blamed society.



The bible tells us in Ephesians to bring up our children in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.


Ephesians 6


1 Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.

2 “Honor your father and mother” (which is the first commandment with a promise),

3 “that it may go well with you and that you may have a long life on the earth.”

4 Fathers, do not provoke your children to wrath; instead, bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.

5 Slaves, obey your earthly masters with respect and fear and sincerity of heart, just as you would show to Christ.

6 And do this not only to please them while they are watching, but as servants of Christ, doing the will of God from your heart.

7 Serve with good will, as to the Lord and not to men,

8 because you know that the Lord will reward each one for whatever good he does, whether he is slave or free.

9 And masters, do the same for your slaves. Give up your use of threats, because you know that He who is both their Master and yours is in heaven, and there is no favoritism with Him.

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power.

11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can make your stand against the devil’s schemes.

12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this world’s darkness, and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

13 Therefore take up the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you will be able to stand your ground, and having done everything, to stand.

14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness arrayed,

15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness of the gospel of peace.

16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

17 And take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 Pray in the Spirit at all times, with every kind of prayer and petition. To this end, stay alert with all perseverance in your prayers for all the saints.


What we are witnessing is a world without God, a world without hope. – I am the Real Truckmaster!


Another Wave of Violence

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Another Wave of Violence


How is it that a foreign entity is able to operate in the United States with impunity using social media, local news outlets and seemingly sanctioned by our own government? How can this be?


I’m speaking of the riot-for-hire tactics of George Soros’ Open Society organization and those under its umbrella. When someone is killed it is and should be an affront to mankind. So how is it that someone can stand aside and film an injustice being committed without stepping in to prevent a tragedy before it happens? I wasn’t in Minnesota but the cameraperson was. Instead of watching and filming could stepping up have changed the outcome?


Secondly where did the “protestors” – give me a break. Call it like it is they are not protestors. Antifa thugs are criminals and anyone who gets caught up in the moment become criminals too. There are plenty of cell-phone and news media videos showing scores of people destroying property and looting as this wave of violence spreads across neighborhoods.


It’s so convenient and obvious that while average Americans are forced to stay home and shelter in place the criminal element roams freely doing their dastardly deeds. What do you hear from the governor, “Oh please stop!” Police precincts are burned to the ground and the National Guard and state troopers are activated to restore law and order. And if that’s not bad enough the scene is repeated in Los Angeles and other cities across the nation. While the President voices his concerns on Twitter, his voice is silenced for glamorizing violence? Even our congress is silent on this wave of violence, unless it is to pass blame to President Trump. It’s his fault they say that a cop killed an African-American man. It may be time to declare Martial Law in Minnesota and elsewhere to place these lawbreakers behind bars and to restore order.


The FBI should come down on organizations like Black Lives Matter and Antifa with an iron fist. There needs to be a blue wave that will take criminal organizations down for racketeering (RICO) and organizing mass lawlessness.


We should have already seen from the Minnesota governor and heard from the Minnesota Attorney General’s office condemnation of these criminal acts and watch as they are brought under control. It shouldn’t be that difficult as every law abiding citizen is still restricted to their homes.


This is not the first time hate crimes are used by nefarious persons to promote hate and racial division. Nor I might add is it going to be the last. We’ve seen this behavior after every election since 2016. We’ve seen mayors and governors turned blind eyes as lawlessness continues and local law enforcement have often been placed on the sidelines and told to just let it play out.


I say turn loose every department, every agency of the United States Department of Justice with specific instructions to stop the violence. Why can’t the same agency that raided the home of an old man and woman at night because they were friendly to President Trump use the same tactics for apprehending the ring leaders, organizers and financiers of these riots?  The memory of George Floyd deserves not only satisfaction but justice as Derek Chauvin (the officer) has been taken into custody. It’s time to let the wheels of justice work. – I am the Real Truckmaster!


Elder Abuse for the Highest Office




Elder Abuse for the Highest Office


We have laws protecting the elderly from being taken advantage of by telephone and home improvement scams. During the COVID-19 we have closed access to nursing homes and care centers to protect elderly residents. There are law enforcement taskforces at many levels in the DOJ to insure there is no one is taking unfair advantage of our most vulnerable – the elderly.


So why is it that we allow a public figure such as former Vice President Joe Biden (78) to be paraded in public on television on a program like “The View” or during stay-at-home quarantine on live feed pleading with voters that if you don’t like him, don’t vote for him; if you’re African-American voting for Trump you ain’t black enough?


I’m embarrassed for him and I blame his family, politicians and the media for stoking the fire of elder abuse which this clearly is. Granted his wife is a doctor, not a medical one but a PHD, but what about his son or other family members? Do they not see what the world sees – a man clearly in the stages of Dementia or Alzheimer’s? Are they so taken by the possibility of him winning the vote (popular or Electoral College) and becoming President of the United States? Should that happen it would be a sure thing that his choice for VP would ascend to the presidency as soon as the inauguration ceremony concluded invoking the 25th Amendment?


Let me clarify something here. Joe Biden in his prime became a force to be reckoned with in politics. It was essential for Barack Obama to use Joe Biden to garner the Democratic votes away from Hillary Clinton in 2008, yet even back then every time Biden got in front of a microphone he managed to continually stick both feet in his mouth. During the re-election, Obama could have switched out Biden for Hillary, but that wasn’t part of his plans for America.


Fast forward to recent weeks it must have been like going to a dentist for Obama to finally come around and endorse Joe Biden for the Democratic nomination. The entire DNC process was phony from the start as Bernie was tearing up the others with voters who were tired of same-o, same-o politics as usual. The way they pulled the rug out from under everyone until the only one left standing was Joe Biden reeks to high heaven. But here we are 5 months away from the election and even with the COVID-19 quarantine of America there is no way that Biden will stand up to the rigors of all out campaigning.


There has to be a line drawn in the sand (Obama’s familiar with that). The line is for somebody to step up and say enough is enough. Save what dignity Biden has left and move him away from the spotlight before he is more than just an embarrassment.


I would never have let my dad gotten out there before his last days if I’d seen in him what I see in Joe Biden. It is apparent that the Democratic Party knows no bounds. The congressional leadership is like geriatric pawns locked in the past. The danger for over the hill politicians is in thinking they are still young, spring chickens. I hate to break it to them but their spring has sprung. – I am the Real Truckmaster!


So You Do Not Like Trump?




So You Do Not Like Trump?


Well Hoopty Doo! Big Deal!


Are your feelings about Trump as President any different than my feelings about Obama when he was President?


The answer to that is most definitely.


This article is not to put you down or even to make light of your dislike of our current President.


Whether you don’t like his comb-over, his tweets or the way he brands others with monikers that tend to accentuate their character flaws or any combination of things liking or disliking and yes even hating him is your choice. So congratulations on making a choice.


I was ok with Reagan even though he was seen as a cowboy from his Death Valley Days on television. He wasn’t liked by everyone and was shot in an unsuccessful assassination attempt. I wasn’t politically active at the time as I was serving on active duty in the US military. Some folks thought that we were given daily briefings by POTUS and told what to do, where to go and so forth. That was their perception of the working relationship between the President and his military.


George H.W. Bush was a navy man and he spoke well. I may not have agreed with everything he said I tolerated him as a politician. I never cottoned to references to our military as America’s military. America includes North, South and Central America and there are many nations with their own military. Bush should have crossed the border after Saddam and kept going until he finished the job, but that was not in the UN mandate. So many lives could have been saved.


I wasn’t happy when William Jefferson Clinton was voted into office. I couldn’t understand how God could do that to us? As I learned more about Clinton, his presidential decisions and personal habits I detested him. He was personable and liked by many and in the end that carried him through his 2 terms. When he left the White House it was his WH staff who superglued the keyboards of computers and left a mess for others to clean up. Even Hillary’s staff packed up WH china and it had to be returned.


George W. Bush was another likeable guy. He got a lot of bad press as his father’s son influencing his way into the White House. Then there was 9/11. Life changed for everyone and I wrote a letter to the editor in our local paper about him becoming president for such a time as this (wish I’d kept a copy). It was his war in Iraq under the War on Terror that claimed so many lives. The press went on the attack and never stopped.


They called it historical for Barack H. Obama to win the nomination and become President. He won the Nobel Prize because of what they thought he could do. Like many before him, Obama was a product of politics and his skills of community organizing. What he learned after being appointed in the Illinois state Senate and as a US Senator from Illinois was how the game of politics was really “played”. He mixed that and what he learned from a household of hardline communism and living abroad while trying to find his place in life. As President Obama played loose and hard with the Constitution, even once saying unless it was prohibited by the Constitution he could do it (very loosely paraphrased). What Obama did to the presidency through his administration will forever leave a footprint upon this nation?  His orating ability swayed the masses and he could do no wrong in their eyes. Even the press loved him. Many of his decisions were not well for the nation. His policies sought to be favorably accepted by our nation’s enemies and shunned our allies while our people suffered. I wrote him voicing my concerns. Did he read my letters? Probably not as the form letter I received said everything of what he was going to do and said nothing about my concerns. Did I hate him? No. Did I dislike him with a passion? Yes. However much I disliked Obama I recognized his elected office and it was my choice to be submissive under his 2 terms. What he did in preparation for the transition of power was unconscionable. While smiling and saying all the right things with his predecessor, behind the scenes he weaponized (locked and loaded) government agencies in what was truly unprecedented. His aim was to punish the nation for not voting Hillary into office to carry out his vision for America.


When Donald Trump announced his candidacy for the presidency like many I was skeptical. I had not followed his life or his business dealings in New York City. His reputation as a billionaire player did not gain my attention. What did get my attention was all the negative publicity coming at him from every direction. Page after page of the Democratic playbook was being thrown at him and I waited for the kitchen sink that would topple his efforts. There were and are unfounded allegations of all type of personal, business or political misconduct being thrown against his “Teflon wall”. Nothing substantiated and nothing sticks. I’ve watched as he helps American’s in need. The media is silent. I’ve seen his patriotism and his passion for this nation. The media is silent. Everything has come against him and he weathers the storms. There are 45 people who have served as President of the United States over our 240 years as a nation. Each had their challenges and branded the best or the worst president the world has ever seen. Never have I seen a President so dedicated and focused on seeing his goals become reality. Never have I seen such savage attacks on the character and family of a President by politicians and their faithful media.


So your disliking Donald Trump is your choice, but what you use as a basis says more of you than what you think of him. In my view you have two choices – to submit under his presidency or not. If you submit you owe it to yourself to do everything in your power to see that he succeeds in his efforts to restore this nation to its former glory. Otherwise you condemn this nation and yourself to failure. What will your legacy be? How will you be remembered? Someone who hated until it killed me? Hate is a cancer to the soul. – I am the Real Truckmaster!


An Exercise in Futility or Perseverance?

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Fighting my claim since 2008


If I’ve seemed distant or unengaging over the past few days it’s probably because I’ve been elsewhere in my mind. I began this fight really since 1970 when I had a lump removed from my shoulder at the Boise VA Medical Center during a break in service. I had just returned from Southeast Asia barely 2 months prior and didn’t know what it was. The VA did a great job of removing the lump, sending it off to be evaluated and the results came back benign, nothing to worry about.


During active military service I had a number of other growths removed in various places and didn’t know why they showed up in the first place. After retiring I had more growths (lumps) removed, some surgically and others using dry ice or spray.


Almost eight years after retirement and just 3 days before my 49th birthday I suffered a heart attack and spent the weekend in a local hospital recovering. I continued working for another 10 years before filing a claim with the VA for my heart condition (IHD) in 2008 and the next year I got my denial letter from the VA.


I was (and sometimes still am) a bit dense. My first instinct was anger, at the VA for denying what was rightfully mine – compensation for a heart condition that had been building up over time and I wondered how military service attributed to it? I’ve no doubt the stressors of leadership around the world in all kinds of situations had a lot to do with my heart attack.


In 2010 the VA recognized exposure to herbicides to bases in Thailand but with stipulations – had to be a USAF cop or dog handler or an Army MP pulling perimeter security duty at a USAF base in Thailand. Fat chance I told myself. They had a stipulation that if your duties brought you at or near the perimeter it could be conceded that you were exposed to herbicides, providing you had credible evidence (photos, documents, orders and even buddy letters). Too bad they didn’t tell us that back in the day I’d have saved all that, right? I applied again and got another denial letter. I went back into the cycle of anger at the VA for doing it to me again.


I began working with other Veterans, encouraging them to keep trying, never give up while trying to get my stuff together and getting denied year after year. It never occurred to me that I was my own worst enemy. I failed to understand the process or grasp the importance of declaring my illness/injury getting it service connected (in service occurrence) or aggravated by active duty and having a medical NEXUS (linking the medical diagnosis to my disability from the service connection). I began telling others what to do, but never doing it myself. At least not the way it needed to be done.


I didn’t know about having a C-FILE (VA claims file). I didn’t realize that the VA starts a claims file the very first time you request assistance from the VA either through education, treatment or a VA home loan. From then on every time your name and file number comes to the VA it goes into your claims file. Someone said to request it from the VA under the Freedom of Information Act (FOIA) so I did, several times before I finally got it in the mail. I had requested military documents from the Army, finance and anywhere else I could think of and finally I began getting those files in the mail too. I went to my local military treatment facility and requested my treatment records from them (being retired military). Soon I got those records too. I wasn’t told what to do with any of the records, so I sat on them.


Finally I decided to get organized and readied a file cabinet and decided to print my C-File which consisted of 214 pdf files. Piece of cake, I highlighted the files and pressed print! BIG MISTAKE! I should have checked more into the details because after several cartridges of printer ink and 2 reams of paper I must have had close to 1,000 pages that actually filled up an entire file drawer. I still didn’t know what to do with everything so once again I sat on it.


Finally I began going through everything – sorting and labeling until I had everything in order. Next I had to mentally process all this information. What I found documents that were not mine included in my file. I submitted a request with the VA to remove those files, but they are still there. I even made more requests through my Colorado congressmen and got a couple of packages with more documents.


I’ve made lots of mistakes over the years, not following through after receiving my decision letters. I was slow in gathering and submitting additional documents, pictures, maps, historical or relevant info.


My biggest assumption was that the VA was my friend. WRONG! After filing my Notice of Appeal I thought I had it all together. WRONG! I got a denial from the Board of Appeals and went right back into the anger mode cycle.


I’ve used a number of VA certified agents over the years and my last one called me up and said I should probably take it to the Court of Veterans Appeals (CAVC). They said they could do no more and I’d be better off contacting a certified attorney. After I filed to get on the docket at the CAVC I began getting all types of letters from certified attorneys want me to pick them for representation. I stuffed all those letters in a file, since none were local.


I had to wait for the VA Sec to send me what is known as the “Record Before the Agency” before I could proceed. I got a list of local attorneys from the VA.GOV website. I went down the list contacting each one. Some were not taking new clients, others were bad contact info, a couple replied back and I even talked to one. There was one recommended to me but he is in Afghanistan representing the USA.


Finally I got in the mail the “Record Before The Agency” which turned out to be my Board of Appeals denial and my entire C-File totaling slightly more than 2592 pages (including those I asked to be removed belonging to someone else).


After contacting and being turned down by several firms (including CCK) I was at a personal low point, until I decided this weekend to finally get it together and represent myself using a 3 page CAVC document called an Appellant’s Informal Brief. There are 8 questions and they look only at what is in the RBA. The brief must be worded so that no other party’s private info is divulged and no part of the RBA is to be attached. The maximum limit is 30 pages. My brief is a mere 8 pages and was sent to the clerk at the CAVC this morning.


I know I’m probably rather high on this long Court Docket list and have no idea how long or when my case will be decided. My goal is for the court to concede herbicide exposure and Coronary Artery Disease (CAD) as secondary to herbicide exposure.


A wise man once told me “the VA is not your friend, it is not your enemy but is a worthy adversary” approach it that way. I might add the VA has lawyers, lots of lawyers who get paid the big bucks to keep the floodgates closed for Thailand Veterans of the Vietnam War era seeking compensation and treatment for exposure to herbicides in Thailand so long ago.


I thought about keeping this private but after much debate (with myself) I’ve decided that someone out there needs encouragement so read my story and continue the fight. Rather than call it an exercise in futility after 10 years it’s more like an exercise in perseverance. It’s not over until it’s over. – I am the Real Truckmaster!